Beware, what lies ahead is very personal but I felt the need to share about the power of prayer and faith that I have experienced. The last couple weeks have really been a test for me about how much faith I really have in God and how much I need to work on trusting him more.
Another gliche in the road happened yesterday. I went in for my check up and they found a lump on my breast. I should say they confirmed the lump that I have noticed for the past couple months. I was really nervous about this appointment and telling my doctor about it because I was worried I would have breast cancer like my grandma (who praise the Lord is a breast cancer survivor).
My doctor didn't seem to concerned but she ordered an ultrasound for today at 7:30am. Again, I was frustrated and wondering why these little obstacles kept coming up. I kept thinking the worst of course and knowing that breast cancer runs in our family, I jumped to the worst conclusions. I thought about what would happen to Addy and Ben, I would miss them; I was scared at the thought of death and thinking Im not ready for that.
Immediately Ben and I let our parents and siblings know so they could be praying. I was really unsettled about this and just felt the whole world crashing in. Again, Ben was so comforting and he was sure everything would work out which made me feel somewhat calm. After talking to both sets of parents I felt better too. However, what came overnight was difficult, I maybe slept about one hour.
I wrestled with myself about not wanting to find out bad news and have to think of losing the life I had. My heart was in so much pain and I just laid in bed a prayed all night and I really felt a sense of peace overcome me towards the time I was about to leave for the appointment.
So, I got up and headed to the doctor and of course I was a half hour early because I was nervous but they got me in right away. I was so pleased going into the appointment because I would know the results right away. The radiologist indicated it wasn't cancer but some of the breast tissue was inflammed and that was it.
Praise the Lord! Praise God for the power of prayer. Our family is such a wonderful group of prayer warriors and for that I am so blessed.
My brother in law, David sent me the verse Isaiah 41:10--So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Today, I felt the power of this verse and how God is really there. Going through this last 2 days was a hill of emotions but God was with me and our family through each step of the way. He knew my needs and he met them. Like Ben always says to me..."God always takes care of us not matter what happens."
I think about this weekend and how we are celebrating the Risen King and I think about what my life would be like if I didn't have him. My life would be NOTHING.
I praise the Lord for his mercies and I praise him today for answering the prayers that so many people prayed for me.